| California Dreamin' |
[Dec. 30th, 2007|01:59 pm] |
So tomorrow I ship out to California to see the Fighting Illini play in the Rose Bowl. Wow...the Rose Bowl. Who would've thought that in my four years in college I would have had the chance to see the Illinois basketball team play in the national championship game, and the football team play in the Granddaddy of 'em all.
I hope the weather is alright and I can get out of Chicago. If I don't, there will be no words to describe how angry I will be. Getting to to go California for the first time, not including the time I went as a baby, to go to Pasadena and watch football is something that not too many people do. Is it a little ridiculous that I'm flying halfway across the country to watch football...yes. But is it gonna be worth it, hell yeah. New places and long plane flights is just the tip of the iceberg. It's gonna be money.
The only thing I wish I could've done differently is have a certain someone come with. The thought of potentially bringing in the new year on an airplane or at LAX is not so great. Oh well, I'll just have to suck it up and deal with it, just like so many other things.
Peace. |
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| On the Turning Away |
[Nov. 16th, 2007|10:58 pm] |
Earlier this week, I had a meeting in the Union. It had been a while since I had been there. From the Union, I walked the distance of the Quad to go to my class in Gregory. I hadn't done that in a long time. It's amazing how you can call this place home and only walk on the same streets and sidewalks everyday without ever having to wander off the beaten path. That's pretty much the story of my life. Which is why, whenever you get a chance to wander off the path, do it. I know that sounds cheesy and stupid. But I am beginning to realize that life is just a jumbled mess of the same tasks and journeys, with very little to no variation.
Then I started thinking about whats to come and tried to make sense of things. I realized that my time here at U of I is very limited. Tomorrow will be my last football game as a student at this great university. My last Thanksgiving break will start tomorrow. This is my last fall semester in college, etc. It is truly amazing how fast time can fly.
All I need to do is find a freakin' job... |
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| Uh...I don't know? |
[Oct. 25th, 2007|01:27 pm] |
Indecisiveness...I'm not a fan.
What I am a fan of is The Office. That show is great.
What would be great is if I had more to write...next time. |
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| shoegaze |
[Oct. 6th, 2007|11:51 pm] |
What a terrible time to have a lot on your mind. I have four midterms in three days. But those, sadly, are not the focus of this observation. The observation is quite simple, I am too flexible in certain aspects of my life, and too rigid in others. While this may not be an earth-shattering find, I am seeing this to be quite true. My beliefs, stands and ideals will never budge. But yet, there are things I want that I cannot have and it seems that I am always just sitting around not doing anything about it. I am so flexible that I wait around and hope for the best, only to have the exact opposite desired effect take place. Everyone else gets what they want, while I'm sitting around hoping for the best. I am not at all citing anything specific, just venting a feeling I've been having.
I also am struggling with many other questions of life. The whole 'what am I going to do for the rest of my life' one is still one that remains a mystery. There are many others and I really don't have time to go into those tonight. Instead, I will leave with this parting thought-being grateful for what you have is a lot harder than it looks, but it must be done and done regularly ...I only wish I could do that better. |
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| What more could you want?!... |
[Aug. 23rd, 2007|01:29 pm] |
This first week back to school has once again been an enlightening one. The move-back-in process went well. I spent a lot of money getting stuff we need and dropped a bunch on books. But there were a couple of other things that I learned this week.
The first being that college is a process that is sadly becoming something that only certain people will ever have a chance to do. The cost of the education and everything else that is associated with it is ridiculous. But another thing I learned is that a lot of people that come to college really have no idea what the real world is like. The nepotism and selfishness is unbelievable. Now I am not saying that I have it all figured out, cause I don't. But there are people around here that have never worked a day in their life for anything. They use their parents money to further their expensive tastes and manipulate people and things to get their way around here. I know that is part of life and I'm not bitching about not having money because I do. I've worked 55-60 hours every week of the last 7-8 summers, so I do have some money. But these kids that are given a credit card with their parents name on it are so lazy and unsatisfied with everything. They never have enough and spend their days crying and bitching on the phone to their parents to change the way things are. What's going to be funny is that once these kids get out into the real world and actually have to work, they will realize that there is another side to life other than dropping money at department stores and expensive restaurants and trips all over the world. I am just glad that I have worked for what I have and am especially grateful for all of the 'rich' lessons my parents gave me by not giving me a million dollar credit line. I am certain that my life will not only be more enjoyable, but also a lot more satisfying than these kids who have no sense of reality or pride about anything. I am also grateful to those who have money and are humble about it. It really says something about someone who has money and doesn't have to live their life telling everyone about it every single day.
This was pretty random, but necessary. |
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| Summer update |
[Jul. 13th, 2007|12:47 am] |
Well, the summer was good. Work, sleep, beer, bags/washers, swimming/boating, cards games etc. But then there has been things that have been quite puzzling. It would be tough to go into those, maybe some other post. Then dad goes back into the hospital today for a checkup on the cancer situation. Its returned and now what the hell do you do? I don't know. What I do know is that there is a plan and my trying to understand it is not going to help things.
Dammit, I'm tired but I don't want to sleep. Hopefully the rest of the summer is good. I'm not asking for much, I just want things to be fairly normal for dad, and for me to keep working and focused on what's important. |
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| stupid router... |
[Jun. 25th, 2007|10:40 pm] |
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Well, I finally have internet access again. Our router decided to stop working for no reason. It feels good to have it back. But I'm not feelin' it tonight for writing anything worthwhile. Maybe later, or maybe sometime later this week. Peace. |
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| I cant sleep. |
[May. 29th, 2007|02:04 am] |
Ever since I have come home from school, I've had a terrible time sleeping. It sucks because I lay in bed and listen to ESPN radio for a couple of hours and still cannot fall asleep. I know I don't help myself any when I come home from work and sleep a couple of hours, but damn, its hard work and I get tired. Maybe I should just drink more Mountain Dew and plan more late night adventures and stumble home at 2 AM every day.
Anyways, I didn't do much this holiday weekend. I watched all six Star Wars movies, and in no way is that depressing. Ate lots of good food and drank plenty of beer. Went to a couple of HS/College graduation parties. Some were better than others, but for the most part it was fun. Do you ever notice how people act at those parties. The only questions people ask are where do you go to school, what year in school are you, what your major is and what you're going to do with it. That's it. Nothing else. No current events, no local gossip, no sports. Nothing. Just the same standard bs. Oh well. I'm sure when I am older I'll be asking the same damn questions. I love double standards.
Shit, I'm still not tired. |
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